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November 23, 2022
"Many thousands of days with You, Jesus. I want many thousands of days with You." I awoke this morning and heard my soul speaking to my Lord, and this is what it said.
Saturday, November 19, 2022, was the third-year anniversary of the day I began my devotional practice of entering the secret place every morning, for at least an hour, come what may. Full disclosure: I missed twice – once when I was very sick, and once when I was hung over. And when traveling, it was not a full hour. I’m so grateful for His mercy.
- But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
- Matthew 6:6
This is the fruit of meeting with Him in this way: I have come off all seven medications I was on. Some of them I was on for fifteen years – heavy psychiatric and pain medications. He also freed me from addiction to alcohol and nicotine, both of which I had used compulsively for over 30 years. HE HAS WASHED ME CLEAN BY HIS BLOOD.
What could be better than all of this? Here’s what: HIM. He has encountered me in mind-blowing ways, and spoken to me, encouraged me, and softened my heart. He has given me self-control, peace, and joy unspeakable and full of glory, because I love Him even though I have not seen him, and even now – even though I can’t see Him – I believe in Him.
Please don’t misunderstand me. This is not me boasting, except in Him. You see, I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to deserve this. I was so dead inside that I didn’t even know how much I needed Him. But He made a move on me at Zion Church in Zach and Laura’s living room one day through something Zach said. A couple weeks later, Laura told me the secret of the secret place. And I slowly began to realize the truth that JESUS IS ENOUGH.
Three years is just over a thousand days. And I want nothing more than MANY thousands of days with You, Jesus.